Monday, April 17, 2017

Forgiveness, storytelling, and hope

Last night, Mackay and I watched a movie called Saving Mr. Banks. It's about the author of Mary Poppins, and her journey to sell the rights to for Disney to make it into a movie. It's a touching story because she wants the movie portrayed exactly how she sees it in her head because it is based on her own life. Her father is supposed to be Mr. Banks, and it is really important for the author to have him portrayed as loving despite his trials in life. The movie is full of flashbacks to her childhood. Sadly, you see that her father had an alcohol addiction which made it hard for him to keep a job and provide for his family. In the end, her dad dies from alcohol poisoning. It made me really sad to watch because of the sadness that his addiction ultimately brought to the whole family. At the end of the movie, Walt Disney is trying to convince the author, P.L. Travers, to sell the rights, and I really liked what Walt Disney said about his childhood. I loved the message about forgiveness, so I wanted to share it. Forgiveness is healing, and it was beautiful to see this character finally forgive herself for things that happened when she was a child. 

Walt Disney: Have you ever been to Kansas City, Mrs. Travers? Do you know Missouri at all?
P.L. Travers: I can't say I do.
Walt Disney: Well, it's mighty cold there in the winters. Bitter cold. And my dad, Elias Disney, he owned a newspaper delivery route there. A thousand papers, twice daily; a morning and an evening edition. And dad was a tough businessman. He was a "save a penny any way you can" type of fella, so he wouldn't employ delivery boys. No, no, no... he used me and my big brother Roy. I was eight back then, just eight years old. And, like I said, winters are harsh, and Old Elias, he didn't believe in new shoes until the old ones were worn through. And honestly, Mrs. Travers, the snowdrifts, sometimes they were up over my head and we'd push through that snow like it was molasses. The cold and wet seeping through our clothes and our shoes. Skin peeling from our faces. Sometimes I'd find myself sunk down in the snow, just waking up because I must have passed out or something, I don't know. And then it was time for school and I was too cold and wet to figure out equations and things. And then it was back out in the know again to get home just before dark. Mother would feed us dinner and then it was time to go right back out and do it again for the evening edition. "You'd best be quick there, Walt. You'd better get those newspapers up on that porch and under that storm door. Poppa's gonna lose his temper again and show you the buckle end of his belt, boy."
[Travers looks noticeably unsettled by his story]
Walt Disney: I don't tell you this to make you sad, Mrs. Travers. I don't. I love my life, I think it's a miracle. And I loved my dad. He was a wonderful man. But rare is the day when I don't think about that eight-year-old boy delivering newspapers in the snow and old Elias Disney with that strap in his fist. And I am just so tired, Mrs. Travers. I'm tired of remembering it *that* way. Aren't you tired, too, Mrs. Travers? Now we all have our sad tales, buy don't you want to finish the story? Let is all go and have a life that isn't dictated by the past? It's not the children she comes to save. It's their father. It's *your* father... Travers Goff.
P.L. Travers: I don't know what you think you know about me, Walter...
Walt Disney: You must have loved and admired him a lot to take his name. It's him this is all about, isn't it? All of it, everything. Forgiveness, Mrs. Travers, it's what I learned from your books.
P.L. Travers: I don't have to forgive my father. He was a wonderful man.
Walt DisneyNo... you need to forgive Helen Goff. Life is a harsh sentence to lay down for yourself.

Later in the conversation Walt says:
Walt Disney: George Banks and all he stands for will be saved. Maybe not in life, but in imagination. Because that's what we storytellers do. We restore order with imagination. We instill hope again and again and again.

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Searching

When I was little, like 6 years old, my family moved to Ft. Irwin, CA. Ft. Irwin is literally in the middle of the desert since it's a military base/training center. I don't think there is much there still. All I remember was a PX (military version of Walmart), a Burger King, a Chinese restaurant, and 2 swimming pools.

Elissa holding Scout & Nathan & me
We were tan, happy kids with a dog, lots of Pokemon cards, and a desert to explore #livinthedream. We had this awesome "fort" behind our house--just a few desert trees and then beyond that it was just open space. I remember wandering around for hours and hours in our "backyard." Once, I remember Nathan getting dropped off by the police (he was like 4 or 5 at the time). He had been out wandering with his friend and they were throwing sticks onto the "freeway" (aka the biggest road in town).  We weren't really on a short leash growing up, which I loved. Luckily, that was the only police escort any of us kids ever needed.

Anyways, I loved exploring and finding things out there. We found mud cakes with coyote prints and called them fossils. Traveling has always been fun and a priority for my family. With my dad's schooling and being in the military, we moved about every two years. I just love going places and learning about new things.

Moving is hard for a lot of kids. I was lucky to move when I was young when it is easier (debatably). Lots of change. New places. New people. Lots of adventures. Lots of books. I love to read. Recently, I went sailing with a friend and he asked me what my hobbies were; I said a bunch of things but that I really liked to read. He asked why--I guess reading is like boring or something. I like the feeling of finishing something, really focusing, getting into a world that it's my own by choice. I like the ideas, the people, their stories, etc. Right now, I'm reading a biography of David Kennedy that my grandma gave me. I'm going to Europe this summer for a global finance investment trip, so she gave me this book because David Kennedy was the Secretary of Treasury and the Kennedy Center for International Studies at BYU is named after him. So far, my favorite part is a quote about politics *oh so relevant to us today.* He said: "We must have at least two political parties--the majority party in power and a minority party--the loyal opposition--to keep the majority party on its toes. The existence of a minority party is necessary to assure that decisions were the result of considered judgement." So now you can appreciate some of the disagreements you have with others about politics.

Anyway, I started it today and couldn't put it down. Sometimes it takes like half an hour of really trying to focus on the book to really get into it then you're hooked.

I've felt that way about many a books. One in particular that I feel the most strongly about is....The Book of Mormon. Mormons say that all the time. It's true though! "It's true...all of it" (name that reference). One of my favorite stories is Glenn Beck's story of how he learned about my church. He's now a member. He's a great storyteller, and he tells about how he searching for a really long time for answers. He read Socrates, Plato, Pope John Paul, Nostradamus, looking for how people thought about religion then. He was in a course about Christianity at Yale, and he thought "nothing has changed. where's the progress? we're asking the same questions that we were asking 500 years ago."
One thing that changed his course was reading letters that Thomas Jefferson sent to his nephew Peter Carr. He is giving him advice for his life: in science, know this. know these languages. etc. Then he gives him advice about religion: (everything in italics is my commentary)

"In the first place divest yourself of all bias in favour of novelty and singularity of opinion. Basically, take this seriously. Don't just listen to the first guy trying to sell you down the river.  Indulge them in any other subject rather than that of religion. It is too important, & the consequences of error may be too serious.

On the other hand, shake off all the fears & servile prejudices under which weak minds are servilely crouched. Fix reason firmly in her seat, and call to her tribunal every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a god; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason, than that of blindfolded fear. Wow." 

I would highly suggest reading the whole thing.
 http://www.let.rug.nl/usa/presidents/thomas-jefferson/letters-of-thomas-jefferson/jefl61.php

Seriously, Thomas Jefferson is a stud.

When it comes to religion, question everything. If there is a God, he wouldn't keep me in a box. He would want me to find him. Everything would point to him.

So what do I do? ask honest questions. not questions with an agenda. you're only agenda should be "I want the truth."

Ask questions and then start looking for answers. You know that famous quote "anything worth having is worth fighting for."



Food for thought.

Props to you if you read all of this.

peace,

Sadie